http://unkster.blogspot.com/2005/10/million-dollar-baby.html

some blog started by some dear unker frens of mine... 30-something, married, working in the corporate world. it's always nice to look out from the window of ur house n realise the world is bigger than what u see... u just have to know where to look.

i found a blog by one of my meimeis today - must say i was abit taken aback by the contents but it is nice to know that she mentioned me in one of her entries, sending me her best wishes for new stages in my life. it's always nice to know that someone is listening to u, and actually remembers ur conversation with him/her... i find it tough to do that, my concentration span is too bloody short.

was reading Ps Mark's book called Stepping Stones, i'm taking ages to finish that book but everytime i read a new chapter, i gain new insights and it reali does feel like i've sat in another of his lessons once again. his sharings have always been refreshing, abit haphazard n disorganised but definitely enriching n inspirational. i always say, "Ps Mark is the kind of motivator who shouts CHARGE, and we will charge no matter what is ahead" - THAT's how inspirational n influential he can be. many of us look up to him for direction, God brought him into our lives, and now sends him to somewhere else again. we have to learn to stand on our own now. it's a struggle, but we shall not b defeated, that's what prayer is for.

anyway, back to Ps Mark's book - he was writing about "Meteka" - participating in an experience so that it creates a resonance in ur spirit.
when u hear someone propose a plan, sometimes u instantly feel a resonance in ur core that agrees with his vision and wants to jump in with him to participate in the experience.
when u have gone thru a common experience together, there is a certain agreement in ur hearts.
This partaking however can bring either positive or negative results.
one example of negative communion - the virtual world - an experience, environment that one can immerse and start to adopt its values and culture as reality. this is why schoolchildren can bring weapons to school n kill their teachers. this is why normal sane men can be schooled and trained to become suicide bombers. the experience they go thru moulds them to accept abnormal standards as normal. of cos, communion in an experience can also b taken in a positive way... but what was more interestnig was the fact that, he wrote - the experience of being isolated from a society can lead to someone setting up his own set of social norms and behaviors - the way to get him out of that is to integrate him with the rest of society, i.e. the real world

i identify with that, having been thru depression - i know the power of isolation. we can train our minds to concentrate on depressing subjects in our life, sending us in a downward spiral that eventually leads to death - spiritual, emotional and ultimately physical suicide... which is why God instructs us to not give up gathering in the bible, for we cannot and should not live isolated lives. it's something i failed to see until now.

this is strange, i started this entry wanting to write about something completely different but here i am - having blobbed a significant chunk without even touching on my desired subject yet. if this is godly-inspired, my prayer is that u, my reader, have found resonance in what u read, and let it ring in u against the background of the ultimate love sacrifice made by Jesus - for apart from him, we can do nothing.

Amen